Hello Everyone,
Five weeks and I'll be leaving on a jetplane, home again home again. Praise the Lord! I love this place so much and I've fallen in love with all the people here too but I really miss home and it will be good to be back in my home and native land. I can't believe how quickly time has gone by here. Many people warned me when I got here it that it would be over before I knew it but I never anticipated it to go a fast as it did. I'm sad to see it come to an end. We've become like a little family out here and I don't want to leave everyone. But I suppose for everything there is a season and it's time for me to come home. I miss my family and my friends and all the simple comforts of home. I miss my country. I never realized just how much I really loved Canada until I came here. Not that I don't love the USA but...I don't know. There's so many things about Canada that I really appreciate.
I was baptized on Sunday. You know how people talk about defining moments in their lives? Well Sunday night was my defining moment. That song by Newsong keeps running through my head, 'When you believe He's all you need, that will be your defining moment. And as you live your life walking in His light, trusting Him completely. That will be, that will be your defining moment.' For the service they had a section roped off for all those being baptized (there were about sixty of us) and during the worship they had people coming around soaking us in prayer. It was amazing! Because Sunday, May 7 was iHOP's seventh birthday they had a time of sharing testimonies instead of a sermon. It was really neat hearing all the different stories of people who've been here since the beginning. There was only a handful of people that shared and then the worship team returned and the baptismal service began. From the moment the first person came up out of the water until I was in the car on the way home I couldn't stop crying. The service was incredible, the music was incredible, God was and is and forever more shall be incredible! 'What a great exchange, my life for Your's' As soon as you were baptized they had an army of prophecy teams waiting for us and each of us was prophesied over. It was so amazing! I've never been to a baptism like that in my life.
I'm so happy! I don't recall a time in my life where I was actually as happy as I am right now. I'm finding who I am, my identity rooted in Christ. Now it is not I but Christ who lives within me. 'What a great exchange, my life for Yours!' It really has been a great exchange. Life was never good when I had control but it's so beautiful now that He is. Bur I know the end of the story and this is not the end but the beginning. I've got a long way to go still but I'm on my way. I hunger to hunger for more of Him. Deep cries out to deep. My soul is only satisfied by my God and King. 'I open up my mouth and pant for I long for Your commandments.' (Psalms 119) My hearts cry and desire was that He would have all of me, that He would consume my very being. He's answering my prayers and it's messing me up. I lie awake at night weeping in my bed for the ache in my heart to be satisfied by His presence. When He isn't near, when I can't feel, Him my world is not okay. I'm ruined. Ruined for anything less than all that He is and all that He has for me. This world has nothing for me.
Lately I've been stuck on Psalm 119. I've never really read it before because, well it's probably the longest chapter in the Bible and I never had the patience. I want to memorize the entire thing. Everyday I pray read portions of it and sing it and just get it into my being. 'Open up my eyes that I may see wonderous things from your law. For I am a stranger in the earth, do not hide your commandments from me.' Augh!!!! It's messing me up! I just want Jesus to come!
Well this is getting long so I'm gonna bring her to a close. I should update it a little more regularily but I always forget about it.
God bless and I love you all!!!!!! | 